The days we had

• Nov 22, 2025 Our first dates A bar, sushi, and a movie — three in one day.
• Nov 29, 2025 The hotel
• Dec 22, 2025 Recovery mission
• Dec 31, 2025 New Year's Eve coffee
• Jan 4, 2026 Avatar at the movies
• Jan 11, 2026 Ikea, then Fogo de Chão
• Feb 2, 2026 Coffee and crepes, and a movie We saw Sentimental Value.
• Feb 5–10, 2026 Our vacation
• Mar 5, 2026 Bubby's
• Mar 24, 2026 Au Cheval, and a movie Project hail mary.
• Apr 7, 2026 Vietnamese food
• Apr 9, 2026 Super Mario movie
• Jun 11, 2026 Cheesecake Factory And the first failed attempt to dye your hair.
• Jun 15–16, 2026 Pasta and wine date Finally dyeing your hair, and painting your nails.

…and all the other times you just spent with me, staying at my apartment.

Hi Tes,

I know this might sound very dumb for you, as I told you before I can’t be sorry for how my heart and my brain operate, and to be honest with you, I think it just needs closure, i understand and respect that you have no intention on giving it to me, so I am giving it to myself and to you by making this letter, I think it’s been really hard on both of us, I am sorry I have failed you, and I have lied to you, and I have not been up to what you have asked me to do, I really am sorry for that, but I also know that I can’t be with someone giving myself to that person and a lot of me and myself and trying to be the best for someone that wouldn’t bat an eye on giving me the bare minimum, I’ve been thinking about it and I told you I could forgave it and I think I really could, but not if it just feels like there’s no change on your side, I have to be wondering if things are okay, I have no answer and I have no idea what you are up to, that’s not communication for me, please don’t take this the wrong way, when I was thinking about it I noticed a lot of things, how you wouldn’t want to watch a movie I like, or go to a concert that I would have enjoyed, just because you don’t like it, while I was always open to explore your interests, it is hurtful, it feels like it was only me trying, and I have been trying to also put a block in my head, how can I change this? How can I make it not affect me? How can I figure out how to give you everything you want and not getting what I want? It has felt very shattering, because I love you so much, but maybe sometimes love is not enough. I do not mean to blame you, I do not want to minimize what I’ve done, I know I have hurt you too, and I am not proud of it, it hurts me that I have and I don’t want to feel like that anymore, I don’t want or mean to bring more pain into your life, I want only the best for you, I have always wanted that, I want you to be safe and happy, you can always believe that, you can believe I will always root for you, and wish you the best from where I stand, I am sorry for everything I’ve put you through, I love you with all my heart, I don’t think that could ever change.

Te amo, siempre,
Ohto